I hate that I still think about her daily.
Even when I know I shouldn’t because of all the shit she has put me through.
Lying to me over and over, playing mind games, that isn’t what a good relationship is based on.
The fact she says she’s happy without me and then comes back saying she isn’t is ridiculous.
But this time around I’m pretty sure she means it. She’s got a job now, making money, meeting new people and coworkers, probably fucking every single one of them too… And about to move out.
She’s never at home, I can tell with the way she never posts to tumblr. Not even photos. That’s usually a sign she’s out of her house and away from he laptop.
I just can’t get the thought of her out of my head.
That also comes with the thought of her with another guy… Doing all the same things we used to do. Yes the sexual things. The things you do with your significant other and think “wow I’m lucky they only do this with me and no one else” then you realize they probably are doing that right now…